A poem for Damon Salvatore

You are a killer

but I don't mind

If you had killed me

I would have understood.

Behind all that act you are playing

I can see the anger playing in your soul

behind hides the suffer

you don't want to show.

You are too dangerous to be weak

too big to fall and be destroyed

but after all you do I still can see

that deep inside you aren' the one pretending to be.

Why does no one love me?

May be the question you ask

As much as it hurts me to say this

But you're wrong..

I love and even more would do

if you'd just let your role fall

and be the one I miss

You maybe killed

You maybe destroyed

but everyone , including you, deserves a chance

I'm not perfect so are you,

but seeing  what you do

because you are too scared to cry

makes the sacred red

even harder to flow..

What turns raindrops to teardrops? Or even blood-drops? Do you have an answer to say? Or a question to ask? No.
It's because most of us don't care... and THAT is what turns them into tears..
But what turns them into blood is not the blood that flows when someone dies... it's the blood of the truth everyone ignores.  You'll think that I'm stupid. Well... okai yeah I am! But if I'm stupid more people should be stupid! Or maybe Frikkin stupid!!! With a capital F!!!
When truth bleeds it means that Lies are just being used too often.
 The lie of being "okay".
The lie of that most of the people in the world are "okay".
Well "okay" is a pretty frikkin Stupid wird. ( Notice this time the S is capital ;) )
Maybe we should all be stupid..

It's freezing.. YES!!!

YES! 
Finally! I've finally got an A.C! A.C  means Air conditioner! 
I think you can imagine that the weather in Egypt is pretty warm.. 
So an A.C is something you can't live without. But I have lived without it the whole past years.. Now I'm laying on my bed and freezing my toes off :D


I thought about Writing the past two or three days..
A text is like  a fingerprint.. It's a part of the one who wrote it. Fingerprints don't exist twice .. just like texts.. No one has the same fingerprint like someone else does. Right?
When you write , a part from you goes into the text. It makes it into something special. Without this little bit you , it would be empty.. sad.. it wouldn't have a point..


Isn't it the same thing with your handwriting?
Some put little hearts on the "i" some don't...
Some people write fast , while others like to write slower.
I think that's the same right?
Like  a fingerprint... 


Sunset Diary! ;) and because a lot of people asked.. No the girl is not me :D
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Sunset Diary 4 


Dear Diary,
I've been asking myself a lot of questions.
Why am I actually writing this?
I thought I would write a diary , so it could help me cope with everything.. 
I thought it could help me think about everything better.. look at something from all different ways..
But now I think what really made me begin writing this..
Maybe I want someone to find  my diary? Maybe I want someone to read it.. but why?
So this someone could help me? Help me with what? Understanding?? Maybe I just needed someone to talk with. Even if this someone is a book.. I need to empty all of my feelings I got inside of my heart. They are way too much that I could deal with them!
I can't look deep into my heart and  look for the reason why I am so different, why I am so confused and so sad right now.
If I think about it I would start to cry , I dunno why I would just start to cry.. 
And it would be very hard for me to stop. Am I depressive? And I just try to ignore everything?


Great now I actually start to think like an Emo..


Well back to the basics..
It's like my heart is a bag.. every time something happens it gets a little but more full..And  when I try to look  inside it , I can't find the beginning of it. The reason of it.
It's confusing I know. But it's true.


Yeah.. maybe that's the reason I began writing this.. Because I had too much to cope with.. I couldn't empty the bag.. 
I guess I have to live with the way I am.. I can't change who I am.. or what happened...
I have to find a way to empty the bag..
Before it's too full..

Things I can not live without

Hey guys!!!!!!!
I can't be happier!!
I've got everything I want with me right now!

A Milkshake
Brownies
Cookies
Water ( believe me or not i can't drink coke or sprite or anything bubbly.. Lmao bubbly like that word)
Juice
Fruits
Internet
FRIENDS


yeah and those ^^ are exactly the things I can't live without. Just imagining a world without them would be worse than a nightmare.. I think they are even in my nightmares.. -thinking-


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That is something I have been thinking about too.. 
How little things can make you  feel bored and incomplete..
Sometime you get upset just because you can't find food in the fridge.. ( I think you know who you are)
A lot of others get upset when they have friend trouble .. I don't count me out of all of this.
And sometimes just one single smile or just a Milkshake can make a sad day a good day..
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To our video of the day:




I likey!!!

Youtube singers and my crazy thoughts...

Do you sometimes think about , how other people think?

How do you want to know that the purple you see is like the blue someone else sees?

How do you want to know if other people think like you? That you are like everybody, and everybody is like you?

You're right you can't.. it's kinda impossible to me, and I'm sure it's impossible to some other people , to know that your way to do stuff is the "right" way to do it..

So doesn't that mean you can never know if you are right? That can be kinda frustrating. Imagine a world where you can never say something right... like I said = Frustrating

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Well, OK that wasn't really what I wanted to talk about today, I just thought about that and found it pretty cool..

So I was surfing on YouTube, watching some videos, and when I got to a amateur singer video I found that comment:

If there are so many great talents like you, why are Miley Cyrus and Justin Bieber still on TV ?????

Well to be honest I think that's true..

If you want to see what I mean click on those links:

( Because I found that most of them are singing " The Climb" by Miley Cyrus, I just took the ones who are singing it for now... -Lol remember I wrote -well I just posted the comment^^- she is talentless? Well for just taking those who sing her songs it doesn't mean I like her...)

• Savannah Outen
• Tiffany Alvord
• Danielles' Music
• Kiddiva07
• pawsonmagic

BEST OF ALL TIME!!!!!!!!! = hchsknights08 click here to go to her Channel!!!!

You think there is a much better amateur musician on YouTube I didn't mention??? Leave me a comment and I'll add it!!! Thanks!!!

That was it for now!!! :( See you later guys!

Peoples' souls

Hello,

I just don't understand why I did not write about Stuff I like from the beginning, maybe I was worried what people would think about me . That doesn't sound like me at all. I don't really care abut what people think about me. Everything is good as long as I like myself, and understand the world how it is..

For some reason I was scared and worried. Stupid me..

People may say I'm too young to understand the world, maybe they are right, maybe I am too young. But does age really matter?

There are adults living for war , and children don't understand why. Children may be the only people who understand the world right . Who grow up in a world, which they don't understand , and maybe those adults who just fight and want money and status did not see the world right, when they had the chance to see it like no one else can.

Do you believe some people are born bad? Well I'd like to , well at least sometimes. Because I can't imagine how Innocent little children grow up to blood thirty hobos...

What makes peoples' souls how they are? Murders, Burglars and maybe just those mean men and women...

Hmpf.. -sighs-

And what about really nice people? Who or what made them how they are?

Is everything so different so we can learn what to do , and what not to do?

How to be and how not to be?

Maybe I will never understand it right , but just maybe there aren't enough people thinking about this..

There's a long way to do for human being...

To be continued...

What I do when I'm hyper!

Sometimes I just can't stop singing, jumping around, annoying my brothers, call my friends, scream .. dance WHATEVER!! Just like now!! I am HYPER!!

So that is what you can do while you are hyper:

1) First of all is singing songs you hate , or just singing a random melody you don't even know!!! Well if you are hyper , and you are really singing , CLOSE THE DOOR!! Or maybe some really nice people, like your BROTHERS or FRIENDS film you! THAT IS SO NOT FAIR!

2) Sometimes I just draw, and then I can't stop , but when I'm hyper... I don't even know what I draw sometimes the result looks like this, don't ask I don't know what it is... Well....

3) If you are hyper and you start chatting it always ends like this:
You've got tons of homework to do, and it's 11:00 pm. You have no chance for that exam you will write tomorrow. I still do it although!

4) Dancing is just like singing , but with a higher risk to fall on your butt...

Same here : CLOSE THE DOOR!!!!!!

5) Annoying people is my favourite... Well here is a list with stuff you could do:

• Call your dog "dog " and your cat "cat" ... (and everything like that)
• Say a random word ... like Buttertoast or SNEEZE and say it often !
• Ask the waitress for an extra seat for your "imaginary friend"
• Say Numbers while someone is counting.
• Sing along at a concert or in the opera.
• Talk backwards ... sdrawkcab kalT
• Wear your clothes backwards

6) Screaming can annoy people.. SO DO IT!!! ANNOYING PEOPLE IS FUN!!

That's it for now!!!!!

Your N!!