Another HoN inspired post

HoN: House of night.
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"Remember, darkness does not always equate to evil, just as light does not always bring good." 

* HoN

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So in the 3rd HoN novel Zoey kinda looses all of her friends.
Now I wonder..
What do you do if you are forced to be alone?
If your friends don't  trust you  , and don't even try to make you feel welcome?

It's true that a lot of girls and boys in this world felt or feel like that .
The fact that your friends are the most important people ( after your parents) in your life is true. Absolutely true.
So what do you do if they turn against you?
Or what if a "BFF" just isn't your "BFF" anymore?

Questions.. Questions..

A human being without a friend is an empty bag.
Nothing in it. Simple . But empty.
But friends fill this empty bag , give it personality .
Not everyone is a good friend. Friends can change you to the better or two the worse. And trust me you never notice that you change.
Friends can also make you gain more friends , or loose your old friends.
It's clear which one of the above is the better..
But friends aren't presents , they are treasures  and you have to let them know how important they are to you.
And just don't let them alone in a dark corner somewhere. Because when you have no friends at all you may regret a lot..

I hate eyelashes

Ouch..
Blink..
Ouch..
A stupid eyelash fell into my eye..
Ouch..

Well Ill just let my eye tear up so I don't have to blink anymore..
I just finished the second House of night novel..
I know I know I read way too much !!!
So I practically already know what I can think off because I cried my eyes out while I read it..
Nope it's not the parents visiting part I wrote about yesterday.
Those of you who actually read the book should know what I mean..

Whoa I can't believe it.. THE STUPID EYELASH IS GONE! HOOORAY!!!
Finally some good news!

Did I tell you I bought two new Sims 2 games?
Sims 2 Apartment life
and Sims 2 open for business.
Sims makes Momma happy! ;)

I visited a Wild Park in Germany , that's where I saw my favorite animals EVER
I'm talking about wolves.. I made a bazillion of photos and videos  .. just take a look at this awesome edited no-sound video : ')

Copyright by twicandy.blogspot.com

:D I love wolves!
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The reason why the last Sunset Diaries entry wasn't that long and you maybe you could think that it was an end for the sunset diary, but I just can't write about something I don't really feel anymore..
I will continue writing it someday but I just lost the connection between me and the story.. (for now)

My little compare

                                                                                                                    

So..

HIIII

My big Br asked me too write a comparison between Egypt ( where I live) and Germany ( where I was the past two weeks)

Well, dear brother, I can't say which is better.

It's not that I can't choose..

It's that they are completely different , but just the same at the same time!!!

It's not humanly possible for someone to choose between to countries!
But it's true that you always want something what is completely different from what you have...

For example:

Someone has straight blond hair and wants brown curly locks.

^^ I think the ladies understand what I mean now..

Well the same thing is for countries.

In Egypt it doesn't rain a lot. ( I guess you already knew that.. hee hee :P)

What is stupid because I love rain..

Let's say it straight away.. I never even saw snow.. like "live" not only on TV.

While some people in Germany HATE the rain and snow and when I tell them we have around 45 degrees , not a single cloud and no wind at all , they actually say : LUCKY YOU! 

What I definitely don't understand.

Because it feels like you are stuck in an oven.. Seriously.

And the first thing you realize when you visited Egypt and Germany is:

The difference between a desert and a forest.

To be honest that wasn't too hard to guess right?

Maybe because I saw the pyramids a zillion of times ( because it's the only thing teachers come up with for a trip... How lame.) , and saw the desert even more often  I'm not interested in it at all.

But in Germany it's actually the same in a whole other totally different way!

You've got the forest , and actually I took some pictures of some trees.. the reason some people nearly laughed at me.

But come on I bet if you would see the forest every day you'll take pictures of the sand.

Oh please.. 

Lol let's go to the people.

Both are absolutely the same!

Kind, Helpful, nice, EVERYTHING

but seriously all the people in every nation are Nice , helpful kind and everything positive so this is an absolutely dumb comparison ....

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I finally began reading the house of night series.

I have to say I hate myself for not beginning reading it earlier.

I just began the seocnd book "Betrayed"

And I even cried at the parent visit part..

This is the link to the official website if you are interested in visiting :

http://www.houseofnightseries.co.uk/

The house of night is another vampire bestselling novel!!

You will definitely love it if you love Twilight!!!

The House  of night series recipe :

• 2 cups of hot guys ( ;) )
• A little bit Vampire tattoo essence..
• A bunch of Fantasy
• 5 cups of heart melting Love
• A spoon of Tears
• A lot of feelings
• Let it cook for 10 minutes and then add the Dark Daughter powder :D

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Sunset Diary

Dear Diary ,

I realized  that not always what you think is right.. is right!

I thought if I just hold myself back and don;t try to be the only fake flower in a garden full of real flowers I'll be clean.

But I was sooo wrong!

I hate myself sometimes. 

but I think maybe you know it already right?

I don't know why I write that now..

Nothing happened today that showed me that! I mean nothing special happened that really opened my eyes and told me Destiny you are wrong!!!

Maybe I knew it a long time ago but just realized it now!

But seriously I hate myself so hard right now!

That's why I stopped writing in you Diary.. 

I don't know if it still makes sense..

 Dear Diary..

this could be the last time I write in you..

" The little bee flew away from the dark , she can't find the way back to her home.

Where her family and friends are waiting for her and where she is safe from the ghosts of the night.

Tired and happy she reacher her house, she lies down to breath , but her breath hurts her so deeply she cries.

The bees'  tears shine the suns' light. You should never loose hope she thinks , she takes the breath, and notices that the pain she felt was just in her head. And not real"

When the lights go out,

and the sounds go silent,

I look at the sky and think what had happened,

since the sunset had begun.

I make my steps through the room,

throw myself on the bed and stare at the ceiling,

but I don't see more than the dark.

I close my eyes hoping to see,

what I wanted the world to be..

But still .. even now.. theres no space for dreams.

Well let's just  think clear, 

if you want dreams to come true..

You have nothing else to do than close your eyes and dream..

The light will come all by itself.

Childrens' eyes see so much more than the sun and the moon at their highest point,

meeting each others eyes , before exploding and leaving the secrets undiscovered.

I wonder how birds feel...
It must be beautiful to fly higher than the clouds can climb the sky...
Only the stars can top them..

Welcome back dear me!!!

Here I am!!
:D
I'm finally back! And I missed blogging!
It was great and like I promised I made a lot of pictures !!! 
But because there are more than 1300 pictures on my camera it could take a while until they're all on my laptop :D
So I'll just start writing some random stuff until I get bored or I got to go.. 
Looks like a plan , doesn't it?


I saw Avatar while I was in Germany..
it made me think even more about the world and stuff..
But although Avatar is an animated Movie there is more truth in it than most of the people even notice.
The human being can destroy, we take what we need if we need it or even if we just want to take it. If it hurts animals or even other humans , our species , we may not care. 
That is something terrible. 
I think if the story of Avatar was true.. I would be with this blue people .. ( sorry I forgot the name!! :P)
I could fight for the things which are important to me. 
Things other people don't see through the darkness of their hearts.
The human has destroyed wayyyyy to much! We don't have the right to kill and destroy..
This is not our world! We didn't make this world ! We just destroyed it!
Again... you try to make things better but you make it even worse!
All those trees  which we took away  to make things out of them , some people will never even look at..
Don't remind me of the animals we killed. We destroyed. We deleted. We ended..
No one will ever see those animals again.


At least some people noticed what humans do , at least some people finally opened their eyes and saw that our world is a place of killing .. We are killing the history of a plant , the identity of a planet!
But .. we don't stop killing, we make the blood even more..
That's sad .. very sad.
For example:
We all know whales . Those huge beautiful giants of the ocean. We may never see them in real , but we know they exist and we at least saw them on TV, right?
Now imagine a world without whales...
Close your eyes,stop reading for 5 seconds and imagine..


It hurts..


Excuse my way of speaking in the following few sentences:


If you read this and you don't understand what I mean... START TURNING YOUR BRAIN ON!
If you still think the human being should continue the killing... GO TO HELL!


I repeat: excuse me....


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Sunset Diary 11


Dear Diary,
Kevin and I had a date.. :)
He sent me a message just minutes after I finished writing my last diary entry.
Then we talked on the phone , it seemed that we talked years to me..
Then he asked me out -smile- 
I hope I'm not one of those kind of girls whose world breaks into pieces because of a guy...
It's not a big deal..
We were eating pizza , sitting on a bench.. somewhere in nowhere....
We did not kiss.. :D
I mean who kisses on the first date??


It was a great day.. 
I'm happy :D

If walls could talk , they would tell us about the fairies, the elf's and nymphs , which hide from the human being and only come out of their secret homes in the walls and places us people would never ever discover...
They would tell us about history , about what happened lots of years ago .. 


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If I could choose how my life could be .. I would choose the way I live right now..


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If people come out of their graves , no secrets would be undiscovered...


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The moon is the dreams' hope... as soon as it starts you wish it would come true.
But as soon as it fades away everything is dark for a while..
But when the sun comes out..  hope comes back to life and never dies..


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Thanks Amanda ;)

Greetings from the other world

I'm in Germany! :D
yay!!! I travel with an "pupil exchange program" and my guest family is really nice!!!
Two weeks to go.. Whoa sounds like a lot of time and not enough time at the same time!!!
I'm taking as much pics as I can so I can post them :P
There are some poctures , which are taken in the plane!!! You can also see the ocean and the sky in a few of them!
The flight wasn't that bad to my neck.. but it still hurts although it's a lot better now :)
I made like 700 pics until now ;) but I'm not gonna show you just ONE of them till I'm home :D

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Sunset Diary 10




I'm waiting alone at home for my family to come. My aunt is taking my little brother from Nursery school and my cousin is at a friends' house to study..
It's so silent. I can hear the souls in the walls.. if you wonder why I just wrote that I'll explain it for you.
My cousins' house is over 300 years old. I do believe in spirits and ghosts. I believe that every soul has to has an end.  And I think if this soul has been tortured it can't find a good end. It will stay alive looking for a way to get a better ending .. 
Like every one who lives in this house is dead. I have the weird feeling that I can hear them scream.. Not all of them  but a few. It hurts deep inside of me .. Like I want to help but I can't.
That's just another weird way I think ...
Let's talk about some other weird ways.. 
Do you think there are more planets with life on it than ours?
I mean why not? I think that like we have a bazillion planets in only OURS...
For example those tiny Motes which fly in the air sometimes. Imagine little very tiny people living on there. Maybe the room where this mote is is like a universe for the thing that lives on that mote.. 
Of course they may look different .. but at least there LIFE on it , right? 
This little mote could me a whole other planet we just can't discover.. because it's so tiny.. or maybe we are just something like a "mote" .. but how could we know the truth?
Basically a mote is a planet.. Imagine all those Bacteria and Microbes living on it... 
Maybe there is more life on it than we think?
I can't just understand the people who think that there is no more for human being to discover. It seems so impossible to me...


Dear Diary, 
maybe the human is too dumb to see those little things sometimes.
But only thinking of it is very exciting.. We should have an eye on it..
x

Oh boy..

I really shouldn't be online.. at all.
I'm gonna travel tomorrow and the reason why I didn't come online at all is.. I don't know how you call it but let's describe :D
You know when you make a fast move and then it hurts. Like something happened with the muscle and every time you'll move this muscle it really HURTS A LOT!
Well for some reason I did something stupid with my neck.. And  the last time I opened my laptop I screamed every 5 mins.. 
That's also the reason I couldn't write ANY posts for the ext two weeks :(
I'm so sorry!!! I really tried but I just couldn't write anything!
WAIT A SECOND!!!


OMFG! OMFG! OMFG! 
I JUST CHECKED MY MAIL AND GUESS WHAT!
IM IN THE FINAL PHRASE FOR LOST IN FORKS!!! OMG!!!
 ok let's calm down before I throw my laptop at the wall.. 
But .. how will I play!??? I'm gonna be somewhere in Germany! 
Ill tell my bro to do that for me.. I will kill him if he doesn't.. I am serious...
Or mybe I'll just try to make it from Germany.. but that will be HARD!
Gosh.. so many problems for such a little girl!


I finished packing :D Yay!!! I was so worried :D 
I can't wait!!! But I'm scared of what i will do with my neck.. it's way better but it still hurts a little.. 
Like I said I really shouldn't be online.. But I can't leave you for two weeks without a single post!
So well I promise I will take like hundreds of pictures and write the longest Blogger post in human history when I come back!!!


Here you go my dead Sunset Diary fans!! ( SD = sunset diary :P)
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Sunset Diary 


I won't lie... I've got a crush on that guy I saw on the plane.. The only one with his light on.. except me -grins-
So I'm in a crushy mood :D
Let me describe him :
Brown hair , beautiful sea-blue eyes, very tall.. and unbelievably cute .. Btw his name is Kevin :P
You wanna know where I know his name from , Ha??
Well I "tripped" over his bag .. and after he helped me to get up again.. I looked into his eyes ( that's why I know they are sea-blue) and just said my name ..  my name is Destiny -smile- I never told you before .. I dunno why... when I know I'll tell you first XD. He said his name after I told him mine.. Turned out we live near each other!!! 
I look forward to meet him when we come back home ..
Let's talk about my crazy thoughts ..
Why is love so important to people? Even me, the one who thinks in a little bit different kind of way, couldn't hold herself from getting a crush like every girl.. And I even thought of a plan how to know his name.. Did I tell you I also got his number? YAY!
I'm acting way to girlish than I normally do.. this is getting weird.. lol
But seriously a girls' life can go from AWESOME to BAAAAD because of a guy.. that's stupid right?
You should never care about a guy "too" much .. never forget your friends!!!!! That's like the most important rule in the Girl-codex..
If you wonder what that is.. it's pretty easy to understand. It's like some rules who keep us women together!
And they aren't really written down some where , it's in a girls' brain...
Always ask yourself these questions and you always know what to do:

• if I was her what would I do , think?
• What would I have done?
• Would I like to do that ? If.....?

Those are the 3 most important :D

The answers will tell you what to do and that's the Girl-Codex in my world..

I'm at my cousins now .. it's still very early and I'm the only one awake yet..

Again I'm the different one.. -sighs-

Maybe I could sleep a little bit longer..?

Dear Diary,

never forget that your best friends are WAY more important than ANY guy in the whole universe..

WOOP WOOP

Hey!!!
I saw Eclipse today , and I have to say it was awesome.. 
Best twilight movie so far!!! More det's later :D


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Well first of all , you have to decide which Blogger Website you want to use!
There is Blogger, Wordpress, Blog , webs.. a lot!!!
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You don't really have to write more than your Email and name.
And you have to choose a Blog name right away .. But don't worry you can change it later :D
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You can download them or just copy the HTML code if there is one :D
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The only thing you have to do now is clicking on "New Post" and start writing!!! You can add Gadgets from you Design page :D
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Sunset Diary 8


Dear Diary,
everyone is sleeping, including my little brother. He looks so cute :)
I'm still in the plane. I didn't know that it was such a long flight!!!
Oh god..  
I think I'm the only one awake...
Why am I always different? I'm always standing out of the crowd.
It's good .. but I begin to think that to be different isn't always that good.. 
You should never regret being yourself. That's for sure. And the worst thing you can do is act because you are ashamed of your real self ..
But it's not that funny if you are always alone. If you are the only one standing out if the crowd. It makes you feel weird and not welcome ..
Just like me now. Like a white dot in the middle of a big black piece of paper.
It can hurt. Because your Fantasy will begin to work. And you'll think that you will never find friends in this crazy weird world.
I know this feeling , I have it a lot. People say I'm funny and sometimes they laugh so hard I start to laugh too .
But that's it , there's like no one I know who is like me. Who at least just thinks like me.
It makes you feel like an total outsider.


Dear Diary,
Keeping your real self alive is hard. When not nearly impossible.
But you'll never regret it!  You can't be blamed because you acted different for one day anymore. I just spotted a boy who's awake now. And gosh he is cute!!!  Doesn't sound like me does it?
But ... see I'm not alone anymore :D

My problaby last post..

I'll be gone for two weeks guys I'm so sorry!
I try to write a lot of posts for my brothers.. so they can post them when I'm not here!
Let's hope they don't forget it..  
I will see Eclipse at 3pm to like 5.30 pm 
then shopping for some stuff from probably 7pm to 9pm or a little bit later..
Then I go home and pack my stuff and go to sleep..
If I have a lot of luck I will be able to come online tomorrow too , but that will be hard!!!


I looked at my flight tickets so I think I have to run around and ask every person I will meet.
My parents won't travel with me :D Which will be awesome !!!!
If you live in Germany or at least travel a lot with Lufthansa you'll know that the " Frankfurter" airport is huge!!! I wonder if we ( me and my friends ) will actually find the way to our next flight..
Oh God..
I also don't understand what this should mean :
Depart: Baggage 22kg + 8kg Handbag..
Return journey: 2x22kg + 8 kg Handbag
????
I understand that I'm allowed to take another whole bag when I'm coming home.. but .. hääääää??


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Sunset Diary 7


I'm waiting at the airport..
For one weekend I will escape my daily everyday and go visit my cousin..
She lives in the next city , so it's not very far away.. But the train station had some problems in  past few weeks so my parents decided to go with a plane.. I will be alone with my younger brother .. I'm in charge ... -happy-
I wonder if my parents will miss me.. When people travel I'm sad at the beginning but then my sadness fades away and everything is OK.. 
Why do we miss people when they go away, move away.. or just aren't as close to us as they maybe were before?
Are we scared that something  may happen to them , and we can't to anything to help them?
Maybe because I could change , and I won't be the girl they knew before..?
I don't know.. But I hope my mom won't cry .. it would break my heart!!!


Dear Diary , 
It's time for me to go on board.. 

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Sunset Diary 6

Dear Diary,

I was very angry yesterday..

A girl in my class freaks me out.. she is one of those very popular stupid girly girls.. whose  brain isn't bigger than smashed sherry ...

She thinks she is very popular , but that's not true..

I watched her.. the way she moves and speaks , the way she  acts..

I think she's an actor. The girl outside is not the same girl as in the inside...

I don't think I'm the only one  who doesn't like her.. She is mean to nearly everybody. Just another trick to keep her acted-outside-self alive.  Does she even have a personality? She is just following the crowd. Doing what they do.. Like a fish in the ocean.

Her grades aren't "the best"  if you understand what I mean..

She could be way better , but she's scared of what people would think. So stupid. But true is a lot of people are scared of what others think about them. I don;t count myself out. But I learned to deal with it. As long as I am happy everything is Ok..

If the others think I'm not "cool" because I am different it's their problem not mine. A lot of those people are acting. If not all of them. Actors are sad.. 

Dear Diary,

Did you know this girl was my friend?

I never told you, because it makes me sad to think about it.

But we were BEST friends.. I thought it would never change ..  but again I was wrong.

 My life changed ..  and I didn't even notice..

Like I said we were best friends.. Until this day.. She wanted to fit in with the popular crowd.. 

And left me standing in a corner all alone. 

I'm okay now. I found new friends, who would never ever let me fall..  But still I miss my ex best friend. I still would help her , I would be sad if she's sad and happy when she's happy. Although she wouldn't deserve it..

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